I am supposed to write a blog. That is usually what I do in this spot, yet my brain does not seem to want to gather her thoughts and get everything written down on here. And so I brainstorm...maybe it will all come together. Maybe the Lord will clear my mind enough to show me what He wants me to write about tonight. I could pull out my old story and write chapter three of 'Perfect Love'. I did kind of leave you hanging after poor Anna was arrested with her friends. Yet, I kind of like leaving you hanging. It might make you want to come back to see if I posted the latest section of the story, and in the process, see if there is anything else new to look at.
Last week was a little rough for me, emotionally, and sometimes I find that when I go through something like that, I tend to pull into my shell and try to hide inside it like a turtle does, trying to protect itself from something 'out there' that could hurt it. Things always seem to come in sets of three. I am not sure why that is, but if something happens, I can usually assume there are two more things that will come along my way, whether good or bad. God is gracious though, and always gives the grace and strength I need to go through every trial and hard time I may endure.
The other day, I was taking the children out on an early morning errand and one of the children started telling me about something that had happened to him. I tried to listen, I really did, but for some reason my brain was not registering what he was saying and I remember looking at him with a blank stare. I felt bad, but my mind could not take anything else in at the moment. With an apologetic sigh, I explained to him that usually minds are like sponges, able to absorb everything around it, learning and saving the info just like a computer would.
"I'm sorry to say, but my brain is not able to absorb anything new right now. It's like a soggy sponge that is leaking water out everywhere. There is no more room for anything new to soak in."
It was one of those 'ah ha!' moments, when suddenly I realized that the cloudy brain was completely full, but I suddenly knew what to do about it. I silently began praying for the Lord to clear my mind, to squeeze out the excess info that was not necessary, so I could listen to my children and be attentive to their needs. It is very important for me as a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, child of God, etc, to always have more room in my mind for what God would have me learn. I must make sure I ask for wisdom in how to squeeze out the excess 'water' in my brain sponge, so I am always ready to absorb God's Word, His voice, and the important things that surround me every day. May we be like a tree that is planted by the rivers of water, ever nourished by the Word of God, always able to take in the water of life that He has for us.
So, thank you for bearing with my brainstorm. Sometimes we need a little rainstorm to clear the path and made everything new and green again. My brain sponge is now ready to take in what is really important. God bless!