I grew up in a Christian home, where we lived by faith in more ways than I can possibly share on here. As a child I believed God in a far deeper way than I do as an adult and I miss the sweetness and innocence I once had. I always knew God would answer my prayers when I prayed them and He always did. He took His time sometimes, but I always got an answer. I had many tough times during my teen years, where I struggled with doubt that God was not always there, but He always sent His peace down on me when I cried out for Him to comfort me and make Himself real to me. I crave to have that simple way of believing in Him once again.
We had some amazing meetings this week with Bro Tom Williams. He gave some thought provoking messages about "How Bad Do You Want It" and another one about believing God will, not just that God can. I had heard it all before, many years ago, but to be reminded that God has not changed, nor will He ever change, brought tears to my eyes. I can go to Him and ask Him for something and He will answer according to His Word. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. What He said He will do for me thirty years ago still stands to this day. I was so encouraged by his last message that I am going to ask Joe if we can put it up here so you can hear it and be blessed too.
Another thing that has been in my thoughts is the fact that John, the disciple of Jesus, was one of the closest ones to our Lord. He always called himself 'the one whom Jesus loved' and I have been thinking a lot about this idea. What exactly made Him the closest disciple? Did Jesus play favorites and choose John to be his best friend? I was thinking about this and have been reading the book of John so I can get a deeper glimpse of John's perspective of Jesus. A statement Pastor made once rings in my head - "You are as close to the Lord as you choose to be." John must have wanted to be as close to Jesus as he possibly could. Maybe the other disciples did not choose to be as near to Jesus, but their decisions were not going to affect John's choices. He was going to do everything he could to stay by Jesus side and hear every word that He had to say during meals, walking along the road, and even in the quiet times of prayer. He hung on to everything Jesus shared and his simple ways were used to write the four books with his name on it in the New Testament. I am so glad Jesus does not give up on me. I am so glad He is always the same and I can trust in Him just as I did as little girl. Childlike faith is what I need to have. Thank you, Lord, for reminding me that You are always faithful and always will be.