When JJ and I left the house this afternoon, with the other four children in good hands with Joe's sister, I was worried about one thing - getting to the DCU center to unload without dealing with crazy drivers and one way streets. I do not like city driving. In fact, I hate it. I am a country girl at heart and I try to stay out of cities as much as I can, but once in a while I need to enter one for something big like this and so I pray, with all my heart, that the Lord will open parking spaces and clear the roads ahead of me. And once again, just like He always does, the Lord made everything work out beautifully and there were plenty of people around to direct and show me where to go. Plus, to make it even easier, our booth was right near the door where we were bringing everything in so we did not have to walk very far. Everything came together without a hitch.
Yet, as I sit here in our hotel room, I cannot help but feel a little bit of panic welling up inside me. I do not understand why. I came without expectations, or so I thought. I came wanting to glorify the Lord with the talents He gave me. I set up my booth with books, workbooks, coloring books, and lots of bright colored things to draw children to my table. I want to give away stickers, candy, and little prizes to put smiles on little ones' faces. So, why am I worried? I think it may have to do with the fact that I feel like a nobody. I have been to a few events like this before and things did not go as well as I had expected - that is why I try to come to this without expectations. True, I did not attend any event as large as this, so maybe I am comparing what may come tomorrow as what happened in the past. I need to put the past aside. I need to stop comparing what was and focus on what will be. I need to rest in the Lord and let Him do His work. I really am nothing. It is all about Him and it is all to glorify Him. So, I can rest in the fact that what ever happens will be all ordained by Him and may His hand be upon us during the next few days. God bless.